It's my Life

My Star...Dedicated to my love

2010-01-06T20:34:00.003+05:30

I woke up in the morning with the feeling of a new day. The new day had a
wish. I wished that I could see a shinning star in the bright clear blue
sky. I went to see the sky. The bright sunny sky had birds flying all over.
Sun's rays were adding beauty to few clouds floating up there. The breeze
was cold as it was early in the morning. Through my balcony I could see the
sea. Its appearance gave me strength to carry on. Sea or ocean as you may
call it is huge. It has the heart of a gem so much of life, and activities
keep going on in it but yet its so silent and so simple. From above one
could never know what’s going on inside. I tried to search my Star and
there right in front of me I could see a single big star shinning as if it
was smiling to me and wishing me good morning and a good day ahead.
Satisfied with what I have witnessed through my balcony I went in to
prepare for a long day ahead.

My day was as busy & as usual hectic but I was wondering that I kept
thinking about my star and the calmness its presence brought me. Its good
wishes have helped me through my day. After the days work I got back home.
It was getting dark outside and my Star strike my mind again. I rushed to
my balcony to visit it again that day.

As the sun sets I could see the bright sky disappearing into dim lights of
the millions of small stars. I could see the sun is immersing itself into
the sea to come again for another bright day. The sky was now occupied by
small-small lights, the lights of many stars. The sea was quiet as usual.
The streetlights were switched on. The traffic was more as people might be
in hurry to reach home. The breeze was cold again. But there I could meet
my brightest Star. It stands out in the mass. I could feel the Intensity
and serenity it brought deep in me, it simply lighten me up from inside.
Smiling at my star I started to talk to it. I explained it how was my day
and it listened to me quietly. Having done with my talking I was in peace
to end the day as I knew my Star would be there in the bright sky the next
day, to wish me luck through out the day.

Sun is symbol of hope, Birds remembered me of life, Sea its beauty and
vastness. When I saw the sky it told me to follow my limitless dreams. Few
clouds represented coolness and movement in life, many small stars are the
crowd and my Star stands out. My Star is my hope, life, dream and my love
and this Bright Star, MY STAR is you..... I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The joy of Giving

2009-10-16T00:27:00.000+05:30

I love giving gifts to the people whom I like gifts and yes looove to receive gifts he he he.

On b’days / anniversaries I tend to send a Card or a small momentum to my dear ones. But that was only up to a limit. It was just to see happiness on my pals face.

Almost a year ago I met a young, talented and very talkative girl. No one could mess with her. We work at the same place and that was when I learnt from her the joy of giving.

She is the only person whom I have ever seen who loves to present her pals with lots of gift. You just have to be in her long list of friends and you are surely to be surprised on your b’day with her gifts. If it’s not your b’day just without any occasion she will buy something and gift it to you. She always say “I was at this shop and I saw this thing (the present) and I thought of you so here it’s for you”. We stare her with our amazed eyes. Earlier my thoughts were like “what a stupid brat she is”. As time passed by and she become my very good friend only then I realized the joy she gets to present her loved ones. People have started fearing to open their mouth and say “oh!!! I like this” as the next day she might get it for them.

Her innocent act impressed everyone because all she accepts is love and true friendship in return nothing else. But our common tendency is how we gonna return it to her?

She is for sure the craziest person I have ever seen who spends more than half of her salary on her dear ones. I am sure she’s gonna hate me to have used the word “spend” as she do not agree on the term when she gets gifts.

But on the whole no one can beat her on this act of her’s but she truly enjoys the joy and pleasant smile on her friends face.

I hope from the bottom of my heart that I am by her side when she needs me. GOD BLESS

remind ur self

2009-10-16T00:11:00.003+05:30

Neglecting me???

2009-10-16T00:11:00.001+05:30

My biggest fear is to be left alone. I fear loneliness.
Few months back suddenly I felt that no one needs about me. No one loves me. My parents are no longer the same they have their own world to carry on and I am not a part. My brother now don’t like to talk to me and my dear friends they don’t like me and are simply irritated to talk to me. Whatever I say what ever I do, never interest any of them. My demands become secondary and I am no longer a part in their life. I felt helpless and useless. The only thing I did was started to stay aloof. Not talking to any one. Quite all the time- at home, office, and everywhere I go. I actually made myself meet my nightmare “being lonely”.

I cried for reasons I still don’t understand. I don’t know what was going on but I felt miserable. My depression was now visible on my face to my surprise people noticed it. “What happened to you?” With all their concerns each and every person asked me and my parent got much tensed. All were scratching their heads to know the reason of my silence.

And that was the moment I learned a very important lesson of my life. “No one neglected me it was only me who reacted that way”. It was me who got aloof and yes lonely. I was punishing myself and I realized that I felt neglected but no one actually tried to do that to me.
So now I have learned a biggest lesson to live life as if it’s my world.

Mom can I stay with you for ever

2009-06-11T23:41:00.002+05:30

I was greeted with a big hug by my cousin when I visited her along with my family to my native for her marriage. All I could manage was to say a loud “CONGRATULATIONS DIIII”. She gave me a sweet smile with a thank you.

She was all excited about her marriage that she took active participation in all the arrangements for it. Indian weddings are usually huge and continue for 3-4 days. It starts with various rituals to be followed to the final day of marriage and then final goodbye from her parent’s house. North Indians typically have their actual weeding rituals during the night.

We found our self’s listening to some funny incidences and talks she has with her fiancé over the phone. Every person got engrossed in her little world. Things went perfectly well. All rituals went fine and the D-day arrived when the couple would be announced man and wife in front of whole world. By the time birds announced it to be day every one was ready to bid the girl bye. The bride – my cousin would be leaving her parents and staying with her new family- her husband.

With in seconds the whole atmosphere was changed by a wave of sadness. This was when I thought about our social life. From childhood to adulthood we girls are protected, loved, pampered by our dearest parents and suddenly we are asked to change and survive in the new environment where you may find a mother-like image but not your mother. With only one hope and one reason a girls leaves every thing behind and walk into a new life. And the hope is love.
Indian wedding mostly ends with lot of crying by the girls-side family. My cousin who till the previous night was all very excited was drown into ocean of tears. She was made to sit in the train with the groom’s family and the brides family gathered around the window of the train to console and talk to her. Every one went near to the window and in their way tried to comfort her. I could not gather the courage to go near to her and say any thing to her but in few minutes I found my self holding her hands and tapping them with mine. She cried more and more as the train left the station.

Men are supposed to be strong, and they cannot cry in public. Most men remain in their calm however emotionally broken they are. But this is one time when any father or brother would be seen with tears rolling down his eyes. Once the train left the station I was shocked to see my uncle breaking down in the station and other men trying to get hold of him.

The worst part of a wedding is the ritual of bidding the girl bye…it is called ‘Bidai’ in India. As a girl I always have a soft corner for the girls going through her bidai. But I was thinking what it must be like to be the groom and watching your bride and her family crying as if they are crying for their lives. It must be a feeling of guilt, a thief (stealing away the family treasure- the daughter) or just so annoyed by the drama going around him. But whatever the feeling is he must be terrible as his wife is weeping herself out during this custom.

Few hours later we called my cousin to ask if she was ok. She sounded excited and as normal as she was during her wedding time. Probably we girls are made to enjoy the present momet leaving behind the past or the boy’s family is too good at wiping off the crying girls tears.

Once upon a Time...

2009-04-23T00:28:00.004+05:30

I got into this local train (local trains are the life lines of Mumbai) to go to my college for the first time. It was my first day to my college after graduation. Just as I got into this train I tried searching a seat for me. There I found it in between two ladies and I went and sat on it. I tried to make my self comfortable as the journey was for around 20 minutes. The girl next to me was annoying me. No actually bead tuck on her dress were rubbing my arms and hence it was as if someone is poking on to me. OH!! Each time her arms rub next to mine I get a reward of sitting next to her in the form as a small scratch on my skin. I tried hard to be away from her dress, I even thought of shifting from the place but by then a station had passed by and many people has boarded the local occupying almost all vacant seats. So I pulled my scarf (duptta) around my arm in the hope to be saved. I guessed that she understood my uneasiness and pulled her scarf as well. Well it was hardly of any help.

When my station was about to come I gave her a bad look getting up from the seat and stood near the exit of the train to get down. Her reaction was neutral as if she expected the look from me. I never looked back to her and rushed out of the train to catch up the auto. See if I would walk as if the garden I would be standing for auto rickshaw for ever so I had to speed up and catch one…its Mumbai meri jaan after all.

I saw a girl asking the rickshaw driver the same college that I wanted to go so I asked the lady if I can share the auto and she was happy to do that. As I made my way to the back seat next to the girl another voice asked if she could share as well. The girl agreed, as the other voice bend down to get in OH MY GOD this is the same poking girl I met in train and here again she was next to me. I cursed my luck. I was already late to the first class and this damn thing again????

Well we 3 started chatting in the rickshaw and we came to know that the train girl and I are in the same class… SAME CLASS?????????

Well I could not digest the fact and our destination arrived…OHHHH!!!! I paid and ran for the class….”hey wait for me” I heard and oh dear I had to wait for the train girl. We were last to enter the class and only place left for us was the front first bench…FIRST BENCH!!! This girl was certainly not nice for me….

The day went of well. We both were supposed to be friends by now as we had formal introduction. We got ourselves introduced to few people in the class and got bonded with 2-3 of them.

Later in the evening four of us went for snacks in the near by restaurant. And there I found this train girl is soooo talkative. She keeps on talking, talking and talking… Allows no one to talk while she is chatting. In days to come, 2 more girls join the gang of our four (who went out for the snacks), and now we were six. But we both somehow (even after initial cold war) bonded well.

Later I told her about the train episode and she said she understood my uneasiness and was very sorry about it. We laughed it out and remembered that strange meeting of ours whenever she wore that same dress.

2 years passed-by just fast the post graduation course got over and our friendship grew strong. From the gang of six the group is no were to be seen or heard. Some girls just had some misunderstanding and some just left us to no where. But finally we 2 are still strong. Its been 4 years now since our fist meet. She still talks to me as if today is the end of the world and I listen to her talks (trust me some times they like of no sense at all). She still asks my advice and never follows what I had advised and do what she likes. She still is as stupid and annoying as she was when I met her for the first time in the train.

And yes she still understands that some beads are poking me even without me telling her that. She still knows it somehow that I am sad. And yes she keeps her mouth shut when I am angry or frustrated. She still comes for my rescue from the world.

We both are the still pillars for each other and stand for each other again all odds. our friendship has been through many tough times but we stuck to each other. even after those deadly fights we still believd in each other.

This small little story of my anger with her on our first meet was just to tell you all life is too short to be cribbing and getting angry on others. Love the people around you and the people who care for you…

We both simply laugh about the whole occurrence and I still hate her pink dress with those beads but I love you my friend.

It’s your fate when you find a special friend.

Someone who changes your life by just being there for you.
Someone who makes you laugh and never let you cry alone.

Someone who trusts you who cares for you
Someone who wants you to know there is good in the world.
Someone who always stands for you.
Someone who wants you to open the unlocked door,

just waiting for you to open it.

hey rups this post is dedicated to you and to our friendship. i have written this peom just and only for you.

The best email.... A wife's Poem

2009-03-16T21:38:00.001+05:30

Another Email material......Just got this mail...quite funny!!!!!!!

Have you Felt Lonely???

2009-01-27T22:59:00.003+05:30

Suddenly life is changing,
Suddenly things are moving fast,
And suddenly I am feeling lonely.

I have 1000’s of friends to gossip with,
I have 100’s of relatives to talk to,
But in this crowd I am feeling Lonely.

When I m travelling I am thinking,
While having lunch I am trying,
Just to understand this feeling of loneliness.

Music makes me realize,
Films also give me hints,
How much I am lonely.

I cry, I Laugh, I crack jokes,
I behave kiddish just to forget,
But this is killing the loneliness.

Even while talking to my best friend,
Over the phone I listen to her,
She can never guess my irritation due to solitary.

I came alone in this world,
I’ll leave this world solely,
With nothing I came I’ll go empty and alone.

What is this Loneliness?
Why is it so hurting?
How do I get out of it?
Have you ever been Lonely?

Have you ever felt this pain?
Or it’s me giving it too much of importance?
Have you ever felt Lonely?

Which one to choose

2008-11-12T12:42:00.006+05:30

OK now this is very common mail circulating now days..... i liked this one...do read it hope u like it too!!!

A woman came out of her house and saw 3 old men with long white beards sitting in her front yard. She did not recognize them. She said 'I don't think I know you, but you must be hungry. Please come in and have something to eat.'

'Is the man of the house home?', they asked.
'No', she replied. 'He's out...'

'Then we cannot come in', they replied.
In the evening when her husband came home, she told him what had happened...
'Go tell them I am home and invite them in!'
The woman went out and invited the men in'

'We do not go into a House together,' they replied.

'Why is that?' she asked.

One of the old men explained: 'His name is Wealth,' he said pointing to one of his friends, and said pointing to another one, 'He is Success, and I am Love.' Then he added, 'Now go in and discuss with your husband which one of us you want in your home.'

The woman went in and told her husband what was said.

Her husband was overjoyed. 'How nice!!!' he said. 'Since that is the case, let us invite Wealth… Let him come and fill our home with wealth!'

His wife disagreed... 'My dear, why don't we invite Success?'

Their daughter was listening from the other corner of the house. She jumped in with her own suggestion: 'Would it not be better to invite Love? Our home will then be filled with love!'

'Let us heed our daughter's advice,' said the husband to his wife.
'Go out and invite Love to be our guest.'
The woman went out and asked the 3 old men, ' which one of you is Love? Please come in and be our guest.'

Love got up and started walking toward the house. The other 2 also got up and followed him. Surprised, t he lady asked Wealth and Success: 'I only invited Love, Why are you coming in?'

The old men replied together: 'If you had invited Wealth or Success, the other two of us would've stayed out, but since you invited Love, wherever He goes, we go with him. Wherever there is Love, there is also Wealth and Success!!!!! !'

Just for you

2008-11-04T09:21:00.001+05:30

Hey im back…any one reading my posts???? He he he he he he just checking…

Just for you

Want to know u....
All my emotions I want to show u...
Expecting endless love from u....
Nothing more I want its just u...
You see me, but it’s something more I want to show u....
The love inside me that you couldn’t see through....
Its u n only u, I want to say...
Hope u not just see me but see through...
You’ll find something that u never seen n it's truly true....

No no I am not a poet at all. And I have not written this either… A friend of mine showed me it to me I really liked it so thought to share with everyone. I would thus like to acknowledge my friend and thank my friend for allowing me to borrow it and post it…Thanks buddy

Yahooo… Indian National Anthem is best Anthem in World announced by UNESCO.

2008-10-22T14:56:00.004+05:30

Jaana Gaana Maana Adhinayaka Jayehe

Bharata bhagya vidhata;

Punjaba Sindhu Gujarata Maratha,

Dravida Utkala Banga,Vindhya, Himachala, Jamuna, Ganga,Ucchhala Jaladhitaranga;

Taba Shubha Naame Jaage

Taba Shubha Ashish Maage

Gaye taba jaya gaatha.

Jana gana mangala dayaka jaya he

Bharata bhagya vidhata.

Jaya he, jaya he, jaya he,

Jaya jaya jaya, jaya he!

Translation of Indian National Anthem in English.

Thou art the ruler of the minds of all people,

Dispenser of India's destiny.

Thy name rouses the hearts of the

Punjab,Sind, Gujarat, and Maratha,

Of the Dravid, and Orissa and Bengal.

It echoes in the hills of Vindhyas and,

Himalayas, mingles in the music of the

Jamuna and the Ganges and is chanted by

the waves of the Indian sea.

The pray for the blessings,and sing by the praise,

The saving of all peoplewaits in thy hand.

Thou dispenser of India's destiny,Victory, victory, victory to thee.

So few days’ back I got an SMS claiming “Indian National Anthem has been announced best Anthem in World by UNESCO. Congrates to all Indians. Pass this to all your friends”. ‘Now what was this???? Are countries going to fight for the best national anthems??? Each countrymen love their country and their anthems no one can actually rank anthems this way. Till now ugly man/women, beauty pageants, 7 wonders etc., had hit the news and this is something new.’ These were my 1st thoughts. Of course this is the best news for me too as an Indian. But I wanted an authentication before celebrating or just being happy about it.

So I approached our friendly Google for the same. Google denied showing me any such confirmation. Although there were many blogs that had same news written on it. Many claimed that we got this honour on September 2008. So I approached UNESCO official website and guess what??? No such news over there. Nothing of such pageant awarded to any country. So probably many people got a mail saying so or an SMS (as I got), they simple posted an article with out searching for evidences regarding the news. Many of the comments on such posts did asked the writer proof; few even claim this as another Internet hoax.

Probably this comment is right. As in the absence of any verification and no news on UNESCO website I would also like to ignore the news. These SMS or emails usually make profits per click or per SMS. These may even forward messages or viruses through these mails. So we must confirm any news before forwarding such things to other friends. If any one as evidence of such thing that should be accompanied by these mails or messages. If any one has any article proving the news plz do leave a comment on this post.

Till then, we consider our nation, as our mother and mother’s are always best, whether she is ours or any one else’s. Mother’s don’t need pageants to be declared the best.
Jai Hind

Rise in love don’t fall in love

2008-10-10T10:39:00.007+05:30

Do not love me yet, for I

Am still a slender moon,

scimitar about the heart

Too sharp to touch too soon.

Before I'm touched I need to grow

More full in golden light;

I need to smile upon my earth

And rule some patch of night.

I need to know what roads and fields

Lie in my domain

And dull my brand new ecstasies

With sophomoric pain.

I need the love of some blank boy

As cold and dark as me,

That we might grope in ignorance

And fear of what might be.

And then when I'm a silver bowl

And know what I can hold,

Then, then, perhaps,

we could try loveIf you are not too old.
--Nicholas Gordon

When u say ‘Falling in love’ what does that implies??? According to wikipedia the definition of falling in love is the change in state from neutrality to the loved one. Hmm a good definition well if you search through the internet millions of definitions are available there. But each has a common meaning that it is a ‘change’. Psychologically when person is ready for the change in his/her life they tend to fall in love. It can also be like a state of collective movement formed of two people only. (Note down two people only… well this is not my theory it’s the theory of Francesco Alberoni (don’t know who is he??? search in our friendly google)). Now that it is between two people there must be some tests for both the partners to prove they are in love. I think there must be some kind of love test (like there is stress test, truth test same way ‘love test’ or lovemeter). Individually they must be put through it inorder to have fair idea of the love between the couple. Further Alberoni also say that the funda of falling in love is the same for young people, adults, for men and women and for homosexuals and heterosexuals: this is because the structure of the their mental state is always the same.

It is a mystery why we fall in love. It is a mystery how it

happens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery why

some love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails.

- Nicholas Gordon

So what do you say "Falling in love" is good or bad? People write great things about this topic. Some write fine things about it and some dislike the idea of falling in love. Our very own Albert Einstein pointed out, "Falling in love is not at all the most stupid thing that people do — but gravitation cannot be held responsible for it."

If you ask me ill say “being love is beautiful but falling in love is not.” ‘Falling’ can imply to n number of things. Something like risky, not in control, moving downward or lower. So do u fall down in love??? We have mostly refer “falling as fall ill” or “fall in a trap” etc so we can imply that falling in love describes a love that is strong but not permanent. Then why to fall in love when its not perment?. When you see around yourself, you may found many successful love stories and many not so successful stories too. In recent times I have heard more of betrayal and breakups through my friends. Both girls and boys have tendency to fall in love and also both have a strange satisfaction in making someone fall in their love and then just leave them crying behind them. But with all the readings and stories I have heard I think love is everywhere. One just can’t live without nor live with it. Scientists may describe however they wish to but it is some thing done by heart.

Wise men say - Only fools rush in,

But I can't help falling in love with you.

Shall I stay - Would it be a sin,

If I can't help falling in love with you.

Like a river flows Surely to the sea

Darling so it goes

Some things are meant to be

Take my hand - Take my whole life too,

For I can't help falling in love with you.
Elvis Presley - I Can't Help Falling In Love With You

Still, I believe there can be a little practical approach to it, think by your heart but act according to your brain and hear with your ears. Try to understand the psychology of the person you claim to love. Its very common among girls and boys to make a person fall in love and later realise how foolish their thought was. Some people simply like to make someone crazy in love and one fine day leave them wiping and shocked behind. There are many other things in the world to do hope life shows improved ways to move ahead.

How can I live without.......

2008-09-02T09:58:00.004+05:30

Have you ever thought what are the things you just cant live without.....hmm lets say list out 5 things you just cant live without...

Let's do....think about it....

done????did you do that?

ok then let me tell you my list..
1. oxygen
2. water
3. mobile
4. music
5. food
(in no particular order).

I am sure something similar if not same...hmmm most of us think of mobile phones...music...food etc...

can u really not live without these...

well we can...
life goes on there is nothing on this earth without which we can't survive....living body has the tendency to struggle through bad times....

Nothing means nothing??????? (ya ya ya few things like our healthy BODY. heart lungs liver stomach and brain etc etc etc......). But we just tend to move ahead. We see a accident on road we feel bad for some time...feel like helpless and low but then we get back to our work.

Lately I have been thinking what in life is most important for any human been or for that matter any living body. Loved ones, friends, hobbies, food, work...... but somehow I was not satisfied with what answer came out of my head. Wanted something like hmm much deeper thought....

I found my answer when one day while I was driving my car back to home... on the traffic signal I saw a small kid carrying a young guy on her shoulder... the guy couldn’t walk and had only 1 hand... the little girl was in a torn frock and couldn’t talk. The guy on her back did the talking while the girl was a transport for him. When they came near my car I could think of nothing… Nothing at all not even to give them money but I was thinking only one thing... no actually I was busy thanking God that he made me perfectly normal with no disability at all.... that was the time I remembered a saying.

"I cried for a pair of fancy sandals until I saw a girl with no footwear...
I cried for a pair of chappals until I saw a man with no foot.".

Other day I received a mail (a very common mail sure many of us must have received and fwd it). It was a mail of UNICEFF about comparing the kids of South Africa and kids of well off families... when our kids played with beautiful toys they have skulls and bones to play with, when our kids have beautiful sandals they have made chappals out of plastic water bottles, when we feed our kids so much they have nothing to feed their kids at all, when we are abut about our kids over weight their kids have only their skeleton to support... well there is not so much that we can do just feeling sad about. Because we are busy making ourselves so called settled and building a secured future. Thankfully there are people working for such people.

But it made me realise what I cant live without... eyes, speech, proper functioning ears, hands and legs -- in all healthy body is all we need to live...

With out this how will I talk on my phone how will I watch movies, how will I hear my ipod and how will I survive even without one of them......its not that people who are disabled don’t live but it makes life tougher than what we live... now that I know and I have experienced these abilities like seeing, talking, hearing etc., I cant think of living without........

In the end of every day I never forget to thank my dear God who gave me a fantastic life and healthy body...with which I can live like happy... now I have no complaints from my life...its gr8 what ever it is...

God bless....

My Salary

2008-08-27T09:33:00.003+05:30

Ok so this one should hv been long back.....but its

better late than never.....

I got my firest salary in the month of june 2008...but I didnt withdraw any till July when i got my ATM card...ah what a feeling its in my name....written on it Neha Shrivastava in bold letters (atleast i could see in bold letters)...to check my card i withdrew 100 rupee and gave it to my mother as my first salary........ I think mom has it inside a plastic bag (bus lamination karna baki hai lol) and kept it safe...I wrote my name on it so that she remembers its her gift and she is not suppose to use it...

Ya ya ya i know i am not the 1st one to get a salary but thats my 1st salary ever....

When some one encourages...

2008-08-19T10:58:00.002+05:30

It happens to all. Many times we take a criticism extra seriously. May be that was a positive and good for us but it hurts and we tend to follow it blindly in order to be perfect. Well there have been many instances in my life, which has encouraged me tremendously. But alas the motivation lasted only for sometime and I get back to normal again.

However some time back I was criticized about something. Something I do and was suggested by few of my folks to change the way I do perhaps for better. Yes yes yes… probably they all were right. But my mind was not tuned to follow their suggestions and bright ideas. Still I tried to follow their advice landing nowhere as my heart was not with it.

I know its so confusing to understand the above without actually knowing the story. But for the first time I don’t feel like sharing the incident and just acknowledge the person I had a nice chat yesterday. Without those spur and good words I would still be standing in the same position heading nowhere. Those might be just words for you but for me where a kick start.

This article is for that person who motivated me to write more...
Actually just want to thank my friend to be with me stand by me... I hope you read this….

Friendship is the precious gift GOD gave to us…so that we can move on and on and on… May we all get best of friends and we become the best of friends to others too…

Take care…

Shock of the year

2008-07-31T17:27:00.002+05:30

Well yesterday I got Shocked when I switched on my Television for the morning news...Ishmeet Singh is dead. I couldn’t believe the new for few minutes. He was the rising star with perfect voice. Only last year we saw him on star plus as one of the contestant and later winning the title "Amul star voice of India 2007". In the age 18 he had achieved so much. I am really sad for the mother and the father who lost their young talented boy.

How unpredictable life could be. Ishmeet's death, who gave up his studies to be a shinning star in music industry, came as a complete shock for whole nation. According to his relatives he had always prioritize his work. A dedicated young chap would be no more among us we all gonna miss him for ever.

I even heard in the news channel that he had enrolled for swimming classes in his home town and was going to start taking his swimming lessons once he returned from Maldives tour. But he could never return for the same.

Ishmeet could enter to the fame that whole country is grieving today. I pray to God "may his soul rest in peace"

any one reading

2008-07-21T16:44:00.003+05:30

hey!!!!!!

thanks for visiting my blog dude....i think its gonna take some time till my next blog so i thought let me see if any one read my blog atall...
plz plzzz plzzz leave a comment if u r reading this blog.....just say "hi" or "I" or just anything...any number of times...

will make me feel good
plz do it
thanks in advance

How life changes

2008-06-23T22:17:00.010+05:30

Well when i was writing my earlier post about the cars i just started thinking as to how life changes...whether its good or bad it just keep on changing...
I am a techno savvy person and love to have lots of gadgets handy...but alas my pocket don't support my wish.... any Way I'm lucky that my managed to provide me all the great things...all basic requirements like music system in my room, computer, phone, Ipod, huge collection of Cd's and books, and yes a mobile.

I got a mobile for my self when i was in first year graduation...
It was a Motorola some model but it looked like this....huge cordless types...but this was in fashion those dayz people used to carry these in hand purposely to showoff.....i was the only one in my class to have a mobile so was proud..at the same time sad as had no one to chat with....any way those days in coming was charged good no one else had it....

Next i got a Sony Ericson's T100 as the big mobile fashion was going down i needed a new model for myself.

This was a cute handy set...loved by all my frndz n of course me too....i used it for next 2 years.....after completing my graduation it started giving trouble...so before my postgrad i had to have a new mobile...by this time FM radio was in...so i wanted a radio phone...the most reliable was nokia 2300

for three complete years i have used it and i loved it...only thing missing was camera...radio stations play nice music hence i didn't feel the need to have a memory card to save my songs.....

a year before i mean last year my dad brought a new mobile 'HTC' for himself so i inherited his old mobile...

although it was my fav but my 2300 was getting old and was troubling me now...so switched to this cool 6670..."i knw i knw out of fashion but still at least a camera"..was my first thought so now im using this...it will take me sometime to chage another but i have changed every thing about it...changed the panel from traditional silver to my fav black...got a 1gb memory card for it (this model cant take more than this)bought a new headphones...so its changed....

still there is 1 biggggggggggg probs it has no radio...dad didn't require a radio so he bought this model but what about me...so i have this 1gb thing and as many songs as possible in it...soon or later ill have a better phone than what i have 2day but no regrates for present one too.....

lets see how much more my life changes...

neha 16 MAr 09: OK a Quick update...some one just reminded me that i should update this post as well.

now i have changed my cellphone and again switched back to Sony ericson a handsome cool piece...sleek stylish n very light weight.....im njoying life with it....

so this is the view of my new phone i have this brown one.....

Our new car

2008-06-23T12:14:00.003+05:30

HOME!!!!! It’s the most Happening place on this earth…what’s new going on in my home…….We trying to figure out which car should we buy that fits our budget…..

For that bahut mahanat kiya….went to car dealers, consult friends, car mechanic se poocha…but the best we all went together for each and every thing. So every one was excited…..

It so happened that we had different choices…mom’s choice, my bro’s choice my papa’s choice and my choice. But 3 cars finalized which were common choice. Maruti Suzuki SX4…, Hyundai Verna and lastly my fav Honda City ZX….

Our first car was a fiat very common those days our 2nd car was Daewoo Matiz coolest car….both were white in color. So mom said we need a big car now…enough of small cars and I was sure no white any more…..

Test drive kiya SX4 and City ZX ki……Both are fantastic cars… we don’t know but slowly we removed Verna from the list and only 2 remained in the end……

Every day when I and dad came home for a week we discussed which car is better. All four of us in tensed up. We are looking out for a long term car…we are not the once who keep changing cars in 2-3 years we want our car to run good 5-6 years…ha ha ha

Finally! ITS MY FAVORITE CAR HONDA CITY ZX….ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I just love it…the day it was lauched from that day I wanted to drive this beautiful car. It may have flaws but somehow I am fond of this car. I actually like black color but this shade car needs lot of maintenance…so its cool to have other lighter shade

Luckily every one liked it…dad found it drivers pleasure and hence wanted to opt for this….mom found it good too and my bro also agreed finally (he wanted 4 though but had no probs with city also). All of liked copper-bronze color…..different from that silver and golden common shades naaa but this is also a running color…. Now things are good…we are calm….few days payment and then registration and then zoooooooooom car will be ours…

I am eagerly waiting for my car…im sure its going to be fun to drive this brand new car of mine…….

Hoping for the best……….

meri matiz...its gr8 car...well now its 8 yeasrs old but still moves fantastic

something like this is goin to be my new car

My first Public Talk

2008-06-19T14:35:00.005+05:30

My first Public Talk

Ok so this is one blunder I made on my first public talk...actually it was a seminar....I never want to remember.

Few days back I wrote about Getting a new job.....yeah so i joined and came to know about this workshop gonna conducted by the department.....now in this workshop people from different places of India were supposed to participate. I was new so minimal work for me...haaaaa....but deep inside I wanted o actively participate in arranging and helping out the participants.....

Before going further i mean writing further as to what I did.....i was just thinking how many times I have given a public talk......In school i have been giving speeches...but there i knew most of my teachers and the schoolmates were also not new. in Graduation or post grad....there use be class seminars...there also professors as well as classmates were close to me....I knew any mistakes no one will criticize me no one going to catch and point out my mistakes.....I always gave good presentation and thought i am good at it until this day......

so just 3 days before the workshop at my institute.....i was asked to prepare a seminar.....well my boss is a sweetheart she wanted me to feel good and that i should not feel left out that’s the reason she asked me to present.....well i was happy cause the topic given to me....oh i was familiar to it...I happily prepared a tutorial for the participants and made it as simple as possible with all the snapshot of the steps they have to follow...... made a presentation for my self....showed it to a colleague.....minute changes were suggested and things were great....

This was a 3 day workshop my seminar was supposed to be on the 3rd day...great i was prepared before the 3rd day......

So here comes the D-Day. As I was not sooo familiar with the topics on that day i could hardly help out people on the 1st day.....Then came the 2nd day...good day… until madam asked me to present today...hey but my presentation was on the 3rd day na.....ya ya ya...but ma’am wanted to finish of the third day early...so it was decided ill present today but tutorials will be held next day..."is it fine with you neha????" "Yes ma’am I can handle it...no probs ma’am"........... 'Damn what a fool I am y i nodded to it...'

Well I had an hour to go through what I have...well i knew I can do it...

But i think here i was wrong I tried my best to prepare in the time left.....

Time flew so fast and 1 hour was gone....I found my self standing on the dice in front of 15-17 people who were specialist in their own field. My co workers were new to me (except 1-my classmate) and audiences were new. I cleared my throat and hey where my voice i kept staring the board and my presentation displayed on it. ha for 1st 2 minutes for the very first time in my life i could speak nothing....

Slow words came in and i started my talk on databases. I kept reading the slides looking at my laptop and not the audience. I forgot every question that i decided to ask the participants in order to interact with them. All I knew was to get out of this dice. I didn’t care whether they understood anything or not. Slowly and slowly i became normal....my shivering was reducing...words came out were now steady and now I could look into the eyes of the audience...

ha ha ha ha ha to my surprise I found half of them sleeping... mine was the last lecture of the day just before lunch...some were not bothered some were too hungry to listen and some were enjoying their sleep in the dark AC hall.....

Any ways I completed the talk somehow
I know very well mine was the worst a ‘bad impression’ on the staff of my new office. Luckily my boss was out for some work she entered the hall when my lecture’s question-answer session was about to end. She helped me answering few doubts and was there for my rescue.....

But still if she would have been listening to my talk she would have fired me immediately….

I have never been sooooo bad in life…I don’t know how many of them were interested or rather listening….i don’t how many understood and how much they understood…but I was glad its all over…I thought next day my tutorials will rock….they will need no support no help…I had made it sooo damn simple each step screenshots and very easy words…….so was thinking next day will be impressive

I think you guessed it right next day was worse. They asked sooo many doubts sooo many…they never so hyperactive in other tutorials as they were in mine….each second a hand raised and they called….finally in the end few people gathered me and asked me to show whats going on in the tutorials…bang!!!!!!!! This was my worst moment……

and then some 1 wispered “if she does it will get over soon this is the last tutorial of the workshop…I wish this gets over soon yaar” So now I realized they were not interested in computers at all…..this databse making was boring and not happening for them….they didn’t have to use it in future so they didn’t want it……sahi hai whats wrong in that

Par in sab main
1> mera popat hua
2> impression down hua
3> frustration hua
4> and……and…. My topic was not what they wanted….

Ha it’s all done…hope I do wel next time……at least I learnt that I need more public exposure to be confident speaker.
Ha ha ha ha aha ha ha aha ha…..yeah hai meri kahani

वक्त नहीं

2008-06-16T14:12:00.005+05:30

वक्त नाहिं

yeah meri kavita nahi hai. aur nahi isse maine likha hai...mujhe ek dost ka mail aya aur mujhe yeah kavita achi aur sachi lagi so main publish kar diya

हर खुशी है लोगों के दामन में,

पर एक हँसी के लिए वक्त नहीं

दिन-रात दौड़ती दुनिया में,

ज़िंदगी के लिए ही वक्त नहीं

माँ की लोरी का एहसास तो है, पर माँ को माँ कहने का वक्त नहीं

सारे रिश्तों को तो हम मार चुके,

अब उन्हें दफनाने का भी वक्त नहीं

सारे नाम मोबाइल में हैं,

पर दोस्ती के लिए वक्त नहीं

गैरों की क्या बात करें, जब अपनों के लिए ही वक्त नहीं

आंखों में है नींद भरी,

पर सोने का वक्त नहीं

दिल है ग़मों से भरा हुआ,

पर रोने का भी वक्त नहीं

पैसों की दौड़ में ऐसे दौड़े, कि थकने का भी वक्त नहीं

पराये एहसासों की क्या कद्र करें,

जब अपने सपनों के लिए ही वक्त नहीं

तू ही बता ऐ ज़िंदगी,

इस ज़िंदगी का क्या होगा,

कि हर पल मरने वालों को, जीने के लिए भी वक्त नहीं!

I wonder if I could write such meaningful and beautiful peoms. But iI guess in this poem, poet has given true meaning of being busy. What v miss in our life when we are busy

Rain Rain you came again!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-06-16T11:52:00.003+05:30

This rain's shadow on the dashboard of my car

Hey its Rainy season again. This is said to be pre-monsoon still but what condition it has made of my Mumbai. Every where water, water and more of water. Potholes have started making its appearance, definitely which is not visible when its raining. Ha it has because it’s full of water in them. So what do you think rains are good or have more disadvantages. Of course advantages are more. It’s impossible to live with peace the whole year if no rains in these 3-4 months occur. They play vital role in life.

If we try to analyze rains make nature happy. Trees turn greener and beautiful, small grasses grow which gives the whole environment a new fresh look. So if nature is happy we can’t complain about the season.

I just love rains when
1. I am at home with whole of my family and its raining outside. From my balcony the site is breath-taking during rains.
2. When I am in office. Well no site view from there but I feel safe he he he
3. When I am on a hill station in natures lap.

Well this is picture taken from net...not my creation
And I hate it
1. When I am traveling…in trains, bus so much of delays and traffic every where yaar.
2. When I am driving my car its so risky

But any ways rains are a big relief after bad summers in Mumbai and it gives us water to drink and other purpose the whole year, so better reasons love you rain.

Just hopping this year rains are better than past….

From Home to Work.....

2008-05-28T12:46:00.008+05:30

Well its been long since i have filled my blog...
hmm things have changed drastically since my last entry...My Post graduation is complete and my training is done...for 8months i was at home...no job n just searching for it....got call for few interviews and went for interview for some...but no luck

Worst of all were those neighbors who kept nagging .. “you still didn't get any job...you are home???? going to do a job or not???? and the worst shadi vadi ho rahi hai kya?????”

Ha those were my worst days...I started hating those people and started avoiding any conversation with them. I was successful but my parent were not. They frequently met people who kept on asking them the same questions. They came back home irritated and tell me the whole thing. Ah that was painful.....My brother started irritating soon. He is younger to me but he kept bothering me with his questions and curiosity...may be he was concerned but i was frustrated....

Though I was all baffled I had one thing to enjoy.....sleeping and the freedom to go anywhere any time.....
I usually go out with my mom...occasionally with my friends. It used to be fun I could enjoy...

All my friends tried to console me.... “are its good yaar enjoy urself now later you will have to suffer for a free day once you get a job....” I did felt they were kind and may be right but that time i just wanted to work....by the end of 5th month i was used to the home environment. I started liking what ever i did at home and even almost stopped searching for a new job...Strangely i started enjoying at home.....and suddenly i realized it ...I started asking myself “whats going on”. It was like as if i am made to b at home. I felt bad for myself I always wanted to work and earn own my own, be independent and live life.

11 march'08 I and one of my classmate gave an interview in an research institute for my subject department. One of our classmates was working in the same institute. Before the co mince of the interview, this friend came to us to wish good luck. Sweet of her. She advised and actually forced me to give this interview.
The interview was done but still i had no clue whether it was good or not. I was just was waiting for the next day to come because they were going to call if selected.

The next day at every phone ring I ran to pick it up, but no calls came for me the whole day. Next few days i didn't move out of my house with a hope that call will come. Within few I came to know that 3 people have been selected and have joined the inst. I was the 4th int he list of selected candidates. That was really painful. Somehow things carried on. I was sad for missing a good opportunity the whole next month. Not a single day passed that i was not doleful about it.

By the 2nd week of may I had given few interviews but not from my field. Some didnt like me. Some didnt like. So life was only at home. All my classmates started doing something, whether in the same field or switched to IT industries. Few girls even got married or engaged. And here I was the only one doing nothing.

My friends talked about their schedule and how much less time they get for themselves and i simply had nothing to talk about. Life was moving.

Finally I got a call from the same inst in 2nd week of may. They asked if I could join them. That was the only thing I wanted to hear. I then contacted head of dept and fixed a date to meet her in the lab.

I went to office on the decided date and started doing all the formalities required. And today i am working in the lab. Its been only 15 days since I am working, I feel its only tomorrow I felt helpless and bad about myself.

I have left all the negativity behind and looking forward to new challenges in my life. My career has at last started and I have lots to learn.

May be this article has no meaning but this is very important writeup for me.
Without forgetting i should thank my dearest classmate (who was working in the inst)who forced me to attend the interview. I will always be thankful to her for this opportunity.
God bless her.

40 rules to be happy

2008-05-27T12:17:00.003+05:30

i just saw these rules some where on net....just go through....

1. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

2. Memorise your favourite poem.

3. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want. Good luck poem

4. When you say 'I love you', mean it.

5. When you say 'I'm sorry', look the person in the eye.

6. Be engaged for at least 6 months before you get married.

7. Believe in love at first sight.

8. Never laugh at anyones dreams.

9. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

10. In disagreements fight fairly, no name calling.

11. Don't judge people by their relatives.

12. Talk slowly but think quickly.

13. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"

14. Remember that great love and great acheivements involve great risk.

15. Call your mum.

16. Say 'bless you' when you hear someone sneeze.

17. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

18. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; Responsibilities for all your actions.

19. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

20. When you realise you've made a mistake take immediate steps to correct it.

21. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

22. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

23. Spend some time alone.

24. Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.

25. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.

26. Read more books and watch less TV.

27. Live a good honourable life. The when you get older and think back, you'll get to enjoy it a second time.

28. Trust in god but lock your car.

29. A loving atmosphere in your home is so important. Do all you can to create a tranquil harmonious home.

30. In disagreements with loved ones, deal with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.

31. Read between the lines.

32. Share your knowledge, it's a way to acheive immortality.

33. Be gentle with the earth.

34. Pray. There's immeasureable power in it.

35. Never interrupt when you are being flattered.

36. Mind your own business.

37. Don't trust a man or woman who doesn't close his/her eyes when you kiss.

38. Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.

39. If you make a lot of money, put it to use helping others whilst you are living. That is wealth's greatest satisfaction.

40. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a stroke of luck.

41. Learn the rules then break some.

ooops these are 41 rules......

Happy B'day

2007-09-10T15:12:00.000+05:30

Whats in a b'day....we all njoy overselfs on our b'day. have fun n pamper ourself as much as we can.....coool

it was my b'day yesterday. i had a blast. my frndz called me (n those who neither called nor sms nor scraped katti hmm not talkin to u)...realtives called and i was pampered a lot more than usual....it was my mom's b'day too (what a sweet gift mom got from GOD on her b'day when i was born he he he)...i the end i cud think of lovely people around me my best friend played happy b'day song on phone...she was more excited on my b'day than me...oh she is my sweetheart.....

but i remembered one of my sir's when i was in 7th std...
i remeber it very well it was his b'day and he was our fav sir...so we celebrated his b'day buying cake and gift for him...we gave him a small sweet party...he was touched deeply by our act...but after everything he started telling us something which has made a mark in my mind. though what he told is a total negative way towards life but still i remember those words of him very well now after so many years....

He said my dear kids y r u all so happy. Happy for me? for my b'day? really??? but y? ur happy that i grew another year old....u r happy because im one year closer to my death ur happy because i m closer to my death my end....ru happy for that...there was absolute slience in the class. we all were unhappy with his words. we were so excited about his b'day & this was what he had to tell us???? He just walked out of the class...leaving us upset, confused and annoyed.

But that thing, his words made a mark on me....its the way u look towards life...+ve or -ve its in your own hand. u can be happy that i have seen the world and lived life safely and beautifully one more year (being happy fot the past) or unhappy, afraid and scared to face anothr year of life....

i take my b'day in a +ve way...i grew a year old but the process was good and beautiful...because i love my life and i love this world... May be my professor was very old (he retired in 2-3 years after this incidence), may thats why his way of looking at life was different.

but yes this b'day was the very nice as many of my frndz remembered my b'day (ya may because of orkut b'day remainders but atleast they wished). Thanks all my friendz to make my day special and wonderful.

GOD bless you all!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Harmony Of Life – Where is the Peace????

2007-08-31T13:08:00.001+05:30

During my school days i had learned a Poem, a huge but sweet and meaningful one. Now after so long I remember neither the poem nor the poet, but the meaning of that poem will always remain in my heart. simply because it has made a deep impact in my heart.

The poem started saying that when God was making us - the humans, He had different glasses full of love, care, richness, glory, and every thing man needed to survive and live life to the fullest. He kept pouring one by one each of the glasses. And when the last glass came he stopped..... He began thinking whether this glass should be poured. Then He thought if this glass is also poured then man will be complete, content... this will make man away from Him (away from GOD).And if he restricts this glass then man will miss something in life and will hence be close to HIM (close to God).

This last glass contained peace to mind or rest. This is the only thing which keeps us abreast with the God.

'Peace of mind' is one thing every human is searching, every human is wondering for. what ever you do for others or for your own self, in the end you do feel hmm something is missing somewhere but what and where is that thing missing.

When we were young we never understood because its beyond our thinking but when we grow old we can't think because its beyond our understanding.

But if one doesn't believe in God its important to think... Where is the peace in our life... we keep running behind happiness and still miss the happiness in our life... that rest of mind is no where....

Keep searching guys............

life goes as it comes...its goin on n on n on

2007-08-21T15:44:00.000+05:30

" There is only one great adventure and that is inward toward the self, and for that time nor space nor even deeds matter..."

Henry Miller

It was a great day when i got my MTech Thesis in my hand. I could feel the thrill inside me. Vo so i completed MTech and now only one seminar and things are done. On 16th of Aug I gave my seminar infront of an external examiner and 2 internal people. I was Scared of screwing up things on stage. But to my relief i could talk cooly and didnt even stopped out of nervesness. phew things went well question round was cool enough and i felt confident.

How was the seminar????????? according to me was great and actually how was it that my marks for the semester will speak for me.

any how all is well that ends well......

Now the biggest chalange in life.... what next... I m been called an intelligent MTech girl s what next..... Job hunting he he he he he

Its still in process i m hoping best for me and my frndz who in same situation that im in. Atleast i could extend my project period rather than sitting at home....

Its still in process i m hoping best for me and my frndz who in same situation that im in. Atleast i could extend my project period rather than sitting at home....So im busy getting up early in the morning and getting ready to go to the office. But this is not a job im a trainee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now i have realised the importance of enjoying life you never know where will life take you so live life to the fullest as if there is no tommorow...i love life.

JOb job job...aja aja aja...ha ha ha goin to come this way gotta go harder way to search..n sing
"tu chupa hai kahan main tersti yahhan" and life is goin on & on...hmm...

Reports on rains..........

2007-08-10T11:11:00.001+05:30

It’s an old story but just got time to fill the blog…

I was amazed to see headline in some news channel something like

"Shanghai banne ka sapna tuta" comparing Shanghai & Mumbai…it was like a taunt. Ya it must have raised their TRP’s… ya its after all its business but then again this was not good on peoples behalf … They kept displaying snaps of people in pain and kept asking WHY nothing was done earlier to help people why no backups were kept. But was this the right time to keep blaming people. We know no body do any thing to stop this havoc. rather then claming people down we as citizen need to help our selves. Untill we don’t keep our city clean how can others do. It’s said na God help who help themselves. So we need to help ourselves to make Mumbai Shanghai...

Soon start the blame game… Who was responsible for such situation…But was this the write time to play such games. Today people need help. I could even see reporters asking people standing in waist length water how are you feeling, what is your condition, what you gonna do next…are boss they in trouble how will a person in trouble feel…

Certain thing like rivers overflowing which added to the heavy rain which lead to water clogging (yap clogging its coz of less cleanliness) … its something natural calamity one need to be patient with that. I know this blame game would begin in media and newspaper etc .. but they could have waited for few days for it to get over… and report stuff which needed stress more on that .. like what is being done and what should be… done now rather than asking why wasn’t this done earlier and on n on.

What ever it is Amchi Mumbai rocks. And its only we who can make it comparable to Shanghai…….

Rain rain go away come again another day (year)

2007-08-09T15:44:00.006+05:30

So, its still rainy seasons. Rains are good for some not so good for others. I never hated rains yes but don’t like to walk in so called “pakka sadak” in Mumbai. NOPES!!!!!!

I never experienced the worst condition in Mumbai during heavy rains. Either I don’t go out or reach home early before havoc starts. But this year I could experience rains; oh it’s a torture.

I reach home usually by 6:30-6:45pm, but this day 18th July it was raining like cat and dogs.. It rained so heavily, that my company bus took ‘1 n half-hour’ to reach the stop I get down to the usual 45 mins. On top of that my friend was waiting at my home to pick me up. We had plans to go to her home for a day stay. Damn on that day only. My friend returning from Goa thought to pick me up on the way to her home. And I agreed to it, didn’t knew it will rain so badly.

Late coz of traffic I rushed to the station in knee length water. Oh I walked on that dirty brown water that touched my knee as I was wearing long skirt things got worse. Any wayz reached home an hour late (thank god! trains were running…late… very late but were running). In 10mins changed into dry clothes packed few things n rushed to my friend’s car. Her dad was driving (sweet uncle was so tired but was still waiting patiently 4 me.3 cheers to him). And off we went. Now I think I reached home any wayz but I went out again just to get stuck in that heavy rain and traffic. Her home is only an hour from my house. He He He and it took me 6 hours to reach there. Wonderful isn’t it.

I met my friend (my best buddy) after a long time. So I was excited to chat to her. After some distance our talk ended. Nothing left we both did all the gossip now what???? Comment on rains, that was over and only one thing remained…SLEEP…. I can sleep in a car for long long hours….so I slept bit by bit…..cool

We reached her home by 2am. (8pm-2am) We were standing (traffic didn’t move a bit) just 20 mins away from home for an hour….its bad really bad. hmmm…..Reaching home had dinner chatted again with other family member and went of to sleep by 3-3:30am.oh I remember my college days when we used to study late night.

But this Rain I’ll remember. I am glad I had not seen the worse part of this rains….cars submerge, water inside homes…I was lucky enough to escape all that…but one thing I saw on road that made me sob was small kids trying to hide from rains. These kids have no roof to hide those poor kids stay on road n rains are bad for them…. I can never forget the site of those small sweet kids.

Rains

2007-08-06T12:06:00.000+05:30

Its Rainy season in August Still and in Mumbai (India), its effecting life.

Squelch and squirt and squiggle,
Drizzle and drip and drain -
Such a lot of water
Comes down with the rain!
-Marchette Chute

Its full of life and fun. But for all of us rains are not happy hours. When sitting at home rains are cool but on road rains brings problem.

I do not like a rainy day.
The road is wet, the sky is gray.
They dress me up, from head to toes,
In lots and lots of rubber clothes.
I wish the sun would come and stay.
I do not like a rainy day.
-William Wise

Although the feeling is beautiful. The cool breeze and wounderful whether. Greenary every were – the grass, tress or rocks or water every were you can experience greenary. After a long summer days, dry whether, dry skin, and hot sunny whether a rain drop help relive all the ain in the summer.

I like to look in puddles -
when I smile
they smile,
when I laugh
they laugh,
and when I cry
they don't mind getting wet.
-Frank Asch

I know I know no poems are written by me but i just loved these poems just reading them gave me a relief from my tensions and pain. Rainy season can be a reason for joy for some and for some romance yes for some it can bring pain- no outing, stuck in traffic and getting all wet. Rains brings along with it dieases.

Say any thing but rains brings hope for new and better times isn't it.

Pitter-patter, raindrops,Falling from the sky;

Here is my umbrella
To keep me safe and dry!
When the rain is over,
And the sun begins to glow,
Little flowers start to bud,
And grow and grow and grow!

Take care and have a happy rainy season.

College Days

2007-07-25T12:14:00.000+05:30

THESE college days of jollity and mirth

How pleasurable are they and how serene,

Just tinged with sorrow enough to welcome in

With heartier joy all wassail that gives birth

To bliss that lifts the spirit from the earth!

Shall not this book and the signatures herein

Of men whose friendship I am glad to win,

Years hence recall this time that knows no dearth

Of ready jests and sunshine of sweet lays

And vintages of Xeres and the Rhine?

Ah! the remembrance of these happy days,

The music and the laughter and the wit,

The cups that smile with glimmering of sweet wine,

Age shall grow mellow with thought of it.

by Richard Hovey

Shopping A Craze for ALL

2007-07-16T14:47:00.000+05:30

So its End of the season....Every shop has "end of season sale"....Never understood the meaning of such sales but ya its tempting to enter a shop and learn their offers...now once u hear there offers hmm "ek ke sath ek free"...."buy two get one free".... "50% sale"...."bring old get a new one in exchage"...so isn't it tempting...hmm very tempting.....so u enter a shop by too many things come home calculate ur budget and there u find ur biggest mistake to go for shopping...a HUGE AMOUNT BILL..he he he

But still shoppping is great fun isn't it?????

Im another shopaholic and these sales and discounts makes me jump....My mommy dear (i inherited shopping genes from her) helps me to maintain my hobby -Shopping

Now from past two weeks me n my mom are visiting this mall which have this outlet called MAX....

Purpose for visiting there: Shopping with all the Schemes they have....good one yaar......Ya really...hmm let me tell the great offer buy 3 get 1 free(hmm...normal), buy 4 get 2 free (better), the best buy 6 get 4 free...so at the cost of 6 products you get 4 free ...hmm...eariler we were reluctant no not good but last to last week we had to buy certain things so we end up there and once we bought few things we re4alised its good offer....so we went again next weekend and this weekend....so in total in 2 weeks we bought 20 clothes for 3-4 thousand hmm and i was happy unless my mom started counting our expenditure and started saying "it was better we had not gone there yaar"

oh i dont like this once you have bought it you should enjoy your purchase.....but i guess i'll not really go into counting by purchase unless i start earning...here comes the time when i should find a job for my self as the my post grad is over in few months......so shayad tab ata dal ka bhao samjayega he he he

Be it any thing i am sure I'll always love to shop for mom, dad, my brother, my house, people i love and care and ofcorse MYSELF......

Waiting for next weekend's shopping(where is the discount yaar?????? he he he) ;)

Its Good to be Unwell....Advantages

2007-07-10T09:42:00.000+05:30

Oh how nice it is to be ill....its good to have fever, cough and cold.....No no i know know what i am saying......well there is pain but also some advantages.....

lets start with the advantages that i felt are advantages......

I was having all the three -fever, cough and cold few days back. Season changed and my brother brought it home. when he was ok with it i caught it and i blammed him for my suffer on which my brother said "its your weak immune system not me to be blammed"...hmmm he was right....but what will m dear immune system do yaar when the virus will be every where at home and at my work place.

Well i got fever when i was in office. Couldn't work that day and damn the office is too far from home re......ne ways the day passed and when i reached home by company bus as usual at 7 i was burning...and i remembered "the day after tommorow i
have a presentation". and i collapsed on my bed and got up only by 11 when i cud feel my dad checking my temperature...He being a Doctor himself gave me

medications and instructed to take a leave next day....when i turned around i could c my mom n brother standing next to my bed very sympethically...oh i felt so touched "i have my people around me when i am not well" after dinner i selpt and got up next day "9:30" wow i enjoyed my sleep i usually dont sleep so long but today it was allowed...

i was in my bed the whole day... my cousin called me and in a very sweet voice i told him "Main Bimar hoon

Bhaiya" and there comes lots of advice and one i liked the most "go and be in ur bed and take rest my dear lil sis"...hmmmm so he was there for me and almost every day he called or scraped me to enquire about my health wounderful isn't it..

Next was my best friend Rupali to call. She called and with my heavy voice i said how are you and she was like "what happened to you???you sound ill why dont you take
care you have to present tommorow and whats up with you....." n on n on.... i love her she the sweetest...

so by the eveing all the relatives in mumbai came to know i am not well so whenever in next few days i met them all of them how are you my child..oh you look so weak...i think u have lost weight (my fav)... take care sweety, eat this and eat that and what not i could hear... hmm at times its annoying but if you think deeply these are small things make you special...

next day when i went back to work every one asking oh howz u??? and could feel eveyone's concern...i had a presentation today so a lil prepared and a lil not prepared i started talking. and heavy voice and coughing was disturbing me i guess others too....but the presentation went well and people were happy with my cartoons and explaination....only thing i lack and instant answering hmm... gotta work on that so that right words come out at right time...

ne wayz that day was good so here comes sat and sun holiday so things went well n i got chance to take rest but again i had to take holiday on monday for complete rest....well this week went by with me being ill....

So there is no moral of the story no no i dont like to gain sympathy or any such thing but i was more than happy when people around me cared for me...

list of advantages
1- parents more concern and caring....more of there protective hug and caring hands.....

2- friends and relative calling you often and talkin to you...

3- get a chance to spend your day at home...SLEEPING (when i am not well i prefer sleeping)

4- you get guests coming to see you just you... so they took out time to come to you and sit besides you (nice na)
5- you usually reduce a bit of that extra fat...

Well every coin has two sides

the bitter side of this is- you are not well feeling weak and irritated...(what is worse than this), have to eat that blunt food... and you r in pain...

So i am still suffering from that dry cough but why to see dat bad part see the good part you are loved more than usual....and u become center of attraction
he he he he

Memories..................

2007-07-05T10:44:00.001+05:30

Life in college hmm amazing………..

Today it’s been 6 months away from my college so I am missing those dayz…. I am missing my frndz and strangely missing small stupid fights with them…

U hate u love u doesn’t care but college dayz and college frndz are important part of our life….

Hey I just remembered our a months trip (Educational trip...hey remember v went for a training for a month) to Hyderabad last year…ha ha ha it was wonderful no parents no one to question but frndz and frndz all around…. I had been to hyd before but experience last year was I could never forget. We were 13 classmates 6 girls and 7 boys… boyz (poor boys) had to stay in a hostel that had no good facilities but v lucky girls got accommodation as PG nice food, room good.

Oh I remember the fight between us (6 girls and no fights not possible)..fights were for small things…. foolish things but they grew big…such that we were no more a group… that 5 frndz of mine reduced to 2 v divided into 3-3……

Ha things were bad then tensions and anger all at one place under one roof. “hey move away u r taking so much place I don’t get place to sleep”, “y did u touch my bag I kept it here who asked u to move it from here”, “its my turn to bath u go after me”, “ah u sleep so much”, “were u guyz went without telling us” and on n on…..

But in spite of all this v enjoyed to the fullest among our own groups (the whole 13 were divided till then in different groups)…sitting in eat street for hours and chatting, NTR and that boat ride hmmm....good na

When v came back to Mumbai things got worst…..it was worst till v left 6 months ago

But now today when I think of those dayz I miss all of my frndz even those whom v had huge fight….

But hey my classmates I am missing u and I am sure u guys r feeling the same…now after all this I have forgiven all and I am waiting to to meet my buddies all 6 of us in Aug this year and I am sure u all leave the anger and every bad memories behind as I am gonna do

MISSING U ALL……MUAAAAAHHHHHHHH

to Start a poem.......

2007-07-05T10:44:00.000+05:30

College Days
THESE college days of jollity and mirth
How pleasurable are they and how serene,
Just tinged with sorrow enough to welcome in
With heartier joy all wassail that gives birth
To bliss that lifts the spirit from the earth!
Shall not this book and the signatures herein
Of men whose friendship I am glad to win,
Years hence recall this time that knows no dearth
Of ready jests and sunshine of sweet lays
And vintages of Xeres and the Rhine?
Ah! the remembrance of these happy days,
The music and the laughter and the wit,
The cups that smile with glimmering of sweet wine
Age shall grow mellow with the thought of it.

Poems Describes feelings the best...I my self cannt write poems but do read them when ever possible this nice one written by by Richard Hovey

Reading this i could think of my college....hmmm i am missing those days

Peom for beautiful life...............

2007-04-19T16:10:00.000+05:30

Like a dew drop sliding from wings of a sun flower

We kindle and commence our life in the lap of our mother

Phases of life set out with joyful and tearful moments

Smiles and Cries part of our kiddy life rest as monuments

As a Toddler, relations we acknowledge are only with parent

We mature to realize Human Relations to be transparent

It is to care and love all as we love our beloved ones

We draw affection towards selected few people

Care, admire and discover a lot from them like a pupil

Never ignore the immortal at times of smiley (joyful) mark

Faith in God is asked for either sides of coin (happy/sad) of life arc

Like a first rays of dawn, friends walk into your heart without invitation

They are as sweet as honey which one cannot buy with any money or position

With a thunderous blow love strikes you on eye of your heart

Not knowing how to react you shy away which are affects of that love dart

To marry a soul u love or to marry a devotee who loves u is always a debate

Everything possess their own good and ill effects, better leave to fate

i read this poem somewhere long time back written by some Indian poet i loved it be cause i think it teaches to love life