Neglecting me???

My biggest fear is to be left alone. I fear loneliness.
Few months back suddenly I felt that no one needs about me. No one loves me. My parents are no longer the same they have their own world to carry on and I am not a part. My brother now don’t like to talk to me and my dear friends they don’t like me and are simply irritated to talk to me. Whatever I say what ever I do, never interest any of them. My demands become secondary and I am no longer a part in their life. I felt helpless and useless. The only thing I did was started to stay aloof. Not talking to any one. Quite all the time- at home, office, and everywhere I go. I actually made myself meet my nightmare “being lonely”.

I cried for reasons I still don’t understand. I don’t know what was going on but I felt miserable. My depression was now visible on my face to my surprise people noticed it. “What happened to you?” With all their concerns each and every person asked me and my parent got much tensed. All were scratching their heads to know the reason of my silence.

And that was the moment I learned a very important lesson of my life. “No one neglected me it was only me who reacted that way”. It was me who got aloof and yes lonely. I was punishing myself and I realized that I felt neglected but no one actually tried to do that to me.
So now I have learned a biggest lesson to live life as if it’s my world.