My first Public Talk

My first Public Talk

Ok so this is one blunder I made on my first public talk...actually it was a seminar....I never want to remember.

Few days back I wrote about Getting a new job.....yeah so i joined and came to know about this workshop gonna conducted by the department.....now in this workshop people from different places of India were supposed to participate. I was new so minimal work for me...haaaaa....but deep inside I wanted o actively participate in arranging and helping out the participants.....

Before going further i mean writing further as to what I did.....i was just thinking how many times I have given a public talk......In school i have been giving speeches...but there i knew most of my teachers and the schoolmates were also not new. in Graduation or post grad....there use be class seminars...there also professors as well as classmates were close to me....I knew any mistakes no one will criticize me no one going to catch and point out my mistakes.....I always gave good presentation and thought i am good at it until this day......

so just 3 days before the workshop at my institute.....i was asked to prepare a seminar.....well my boss is a sweetheart she wanted me to feel good and that i should not feel left out that’s the reason she asked me to present.....well i was happy cause the topic given to me....oh i was familiar to it...I happily prepared a tutorial for the participants and made it as simple as possible with all the snapshot of the steps they have to follow...... made a presentation for my self....showed it to a colleague.....minute changes were suggested and things were great....

This was a 3 day workshop my seminar was supposed to be on the 3rd day...great i was prepared before the 3rd day......

So here comes the D-Day. As I was not sooo familiar with the topics on that day i could hardly help out people on the 1st day.....Then came the 2nd day...good day… until madam asked me to present today...hey but my presentation was on the 3rd day na.....ya ya ya...but ma’am wanted to finish of the third day early...so it was decided ill present today but tutorials will be held next day..."is it fine with you neha????" "Yes ma’am I can handle it...no probs ma’am"........... 'Damn what a fool I am y i nodded to it...'

Well I had an hour to go through what I have...well i knew I can do it...

But i think here i was wrong I tried my best to prepare in the time left.....

Time flew so fast and 1 hour was gone....I found my self standing on the dice in front of 15-17 people who were specialist in their own field. My co workers were new to me (except 1-my classmate) and audiences were new. I cleared my throat and hey where my voice i kept staring the board and my presentation displayed on it. ha for 1st 2 minutes for the very first time in my life i could speak nothing....

Slow words came in and i started my talk on databases. I kept reading the slides looking at my laptop and not the audience. I forgot every question that i decided to ask the participants in order to interact with them. All I knew was to get out of this dice. I didn’t care whether they understood anything or not. Slowly and slowly i became normal....my shivering was reducing...words came out were now steady and now I could look into the eyes of the audience...

ha ha ha ha ha to my surprise I found half of them sleeping... mine was the last lecture of the day just before lunch...some were not bothered some were too hungry to listen and some were enjoying their sleep in the dark AC hall.....

Any ways I completed the talk somehow
I know very well mine was the worst a ‘bad impression’ on the staff of my new office. Luckily my boss was out for some work she entered the hall when my lecture’s question-answer session was about to end. She helped me answering few doubts and was there for my rescue.....

But still if she would have been listening to my talk she would have fired me immediately….

I have never been sooooo bad in life…I don’t know how many of them were interested or rather listening….i don’t how many understood and how much they understood…but I was glad its all over…I thought next day my tutorials will rock….they will need no support no help…I had made it sooo damn simple each step screenshots and very easy words…….so was thinking next day will be impressive

I think you guessed it right next day was worse. They asked sooo many doubts sooo many…they never so hyperactive in other tutorials as they were in mine….each second a hand raised and they called….finally in the end few people gathered me and asked me to show whats going on in the tutorials…bang!!!!!!!! This was my worst moment……

and then some 1 wispered “if she does it will get over soon this is the last tutorial of the workshop…I wish this gets over soon yaar” So now I realized they were not interested in computers at all…..this databse making was boring and not happening for them….they didn’t have to use it in future so they didn’t want it……sahi hai whats wrong in that

Par in sab main
1> mera popat hua
2> impression down hua
3> frustration hua
4> and……and…. My topic was not what they wanted….

Ha it’s all done…hope I do wel next time……at least I learnt that I need more public exposure to be confident speaker.
Ha ha ha ha aha ha ha aha ha…..yeah hai meri kahani